almost 42

OK today is the last day of my being 41. I'm 42 tomorrow...I'm still getting used to being 40. Life moves fast. The boys are having their birthday party tomorrow...so it takes some heat off me. I would be happy with never celebrating a birthday again. But I think this might upset others. I've never liked birthdays. I think I was constantly disappointed as a child and finally gave up. For a Leo, I think that being the center of attention isn't the biggest deal for me. Not to say I don't like any attention. That would be a false statement. But, I guess I'm finding it hard to say goodbye to my maidenhood. Motherhood has taken ovah! And as I slowly approach my 50's I realise how quickly life passes. This is why it's so important to live and be present in the moment. I have to remind myself daily ...hourly really. My kids are already 5. The last 5 years have flown by. I really enjoyed them being infants,nursing them and watching them sleep. Now things become more challenging. Testing, sassing, negotiating. They are our greatest teachers. I have learned more about myself these last few years...and it's been humbling. My ego has taken a well deserved beating and I feel like I am struggling to emerge from my pupa/chrysalis. I'm looking forward to seeing who I become. Even if that means I have to continue celebrating birthdays. Happy birthday to all my fellow Leos. Love and light, Megxoxo