So today was the first day of Kindergarten for the boys. I have been looking forward to this day for a while. So here we are. Last night I was talking to Andrew about it and all our expectations. When I dropped off Andrew at the Bart station I cried like a baby. I think some of it has to do with them growing up and the reality that they will never be 4 again or 3...you get my meaning. But I also think that this might be bringing up some school stuff for me. I remember being excited about going and doing crafts...but my sense is that my kids have it a lot better than I. The schools are better. The teachers are dedicated and enthusiastic. The parents are involved. I need to remember that their experience is their own unique one ..not mine. This has been a tough year for me so far. As I struggle to navigate through it I am comforted by the love and friendship I have with Andrew. I don't know what I would do without his understanding and support. My friends and my mom are a great sources of strength. I only wish that my friends weren't so far away. Well, I guess it's time to open up to new people and put myself out there... wherever that is.
xoxo
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hey, not to compare...but i burst into tears & really just freaked out the other day while doing a job application online....can we say SPAZ! lol lol lol
ReplyDeletei'll have to start writing a ink & pen journal again, cuz the foolishness...well, anyway...
thanx for inviting me to be a participant in your journal....since we are more so of an extended acquaintance....and you are very raw in your posts sometimes
several of the daily meditations have really given me a kick in the head....boy, do i miss the Bay Area....real book stores, unique, artistic & sometimes whack-a-doodle people :^)
ok, bigger babble that necessary...
tomorrow will be a excellent start to the rest of our lives....hugs&slugs
I love you!
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